Oh no, you don't have to-- [But Ana is already moving to take care of things, and You just freezes there for a moment before slumping slightly.] ...okay, if you... if you really don't mind.
[It's almost worse to feel helpless than to need the help, in a way. But You awkwardly sits down at the small table she eats at, not looking up at Ana or even saying anything. Even when she's directly asked a question, she's silent for way too long, for such an exuberant, energetic girl.]
...I don't know. [It's raw, and honest.] I don't know what I want.
I don't mind. [ She comes to sit at the table with You while the water heats. She doesn't push. This isn't the kind of thing that's easy to talk through. Back home, she wouldn't have had a hard time finding someone professional, someone who dealt with this sort of thing primarily, but here they only have each other. ]
It's okay. [ She doesn't have to talk about it. ] What happened to you should never have happened.
[ I should have been there to protect you. She doesn't say it. She can't be there all of the time, for everyone, and her guilt isn't going to help either of them. ] I can't make that go away. I don't even know if I can help. But I promise you won't ever have to deal with it alone.
[Somehow, Ana's kind, understanding tones are making it worse.] I-- I don't know what I want to do. [She repeats, and her hands come to support her forehead, even though one is bandaged.]
I just-- I kinda want to-- I just want to stay here for a bit. Inside. [She takes a breath.]
Um, when I close my eyes, I-- you know, I-- one of the guys who was trying to keep us there, he had a gun, and-- and someone shot him when he was right next to me.
[ Ana stands so she can come over to where You is sitting. She puts her hand on the young woman's shoulder. Needing to stay inside and come apart for a while is something she understands better than most people.
She wishes that You didn't understand it. She's a young woman - she shouldn't know what it is to fear for her life, or to see someone die in front of her. ]
I know what you mean. Is that why you haven't been sleeping? [ It's pretty obvious from looking at her that she hasn't closed her eyes much at all. ]
[There's a quiet, pregnant pause before You nods, a short single nod of her head that speaks volumes.] ...yeah.
Every time I lie down I just start thinking about-- about, you know, stuff, so I get up and have a drink or make a snack or something and before I know it, hey, it's light out, and...!
[You sounds frustrated, and confused, and wears her heart on her sleeve.
She doesn't know how to deal with this.] And I don't get why it had to happen at all. --any of it!
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Date: 2018-04-07 06:46 pm (UTC)[It's almost worse to feel helpless than to need the help, in a way. But You awkwardly sits down at the small table she eats at, not looking up at Ana or even saying anything. Even when she's directly asked a question, she's silent for way too long, for such an exuberant, energetic girl.]
...I don't know. [It's raw, and honest.] I don't know what I want.
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Date: 2018-04-10 01:22 pm (UTC)It's okay. [ She doesn't have to talk about it. ] What happened to you should never have happened.
[ I should have been there to protect you. She doesn't say it. She can't be there all of the time, for everyone, and her guilt isn't going to help either of them. ] I can't make that go away. I don't even know if I can help. But I promise you won't ever have to deal with it alone.
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Date: 2018-04-11 03:15 am (UTC)I just-- I kinda want to-- I just want to stay here for a bit. Inside. [She takes a breath.]
Um, when I close my eyes, I-- you know, I-- one of the guys who was trying to keep us there, he had a gun, and-- and someone shot him when he was right next to me.
[She'd never seen a person die before.]
I keep seeing that. H-how he looked, I mean.
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Date: 2018-04-22 11:22 pm (UTC)She wishes that You didn't understand it. She's a young woman - she shouldn't know what it is to fear for her life, or to see someone die in front of her. ]
I know what you mean. Is that why you haven't been sleeping? [ It's pretty obvious from looking at her that she hasn't closed her eyes much at all. ]
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Date: 2018-04-23 02:07 am (UTC)Every time I lie down I just start thinking about-- about, you know, stuff, so I get up and have a drink or make a snack or something and before I know it, hey, it's light out, and...!
[You sounds frustrated, and confused, and wears her heart on her sleeve.
She doesn't know how to deal with this.] And I don't get why it had to happen at all. --any of it!
[Yeah, she's coming apart at the seams.]